Before I go
Taking stock Before I Go –
From this experience,
Now more than threescore and thirteen years,
About midway between my dad: sixty-seven,
And, mom: eighty years.
Time to reflect, to weigh my contributions
As a husband, father, Christian Scientist in this experience,
Before I Go.
Admittedly a fool for most of my life, I know,
But in the past few years, no gainsay:
I don’t think or do today
What I thought or did some years ago.
Received a blessed upbringing – this experience,
So, must have achieved some measure of success – previous experience?
How will the balance scales of judgement weigh my contribution this time:
Before I Go?
Oftimes a prodigal son – but, my Father-Mother God
Took me back again and again,
Knowing – I would once again begin
To tread up the winding, guided pathway
Underneath the Shepherd’s rod.
What must the posthumous record gavel?
A good, hardworking businessman –
There should be no cavil,
But, other traits, what the outcome will be:
As a husband, father and friend for —
My beloved wife: was I compassionate, loving, supportive, patient throughout our “divine adventure” of life?
Our wonderful children: was I a guide and proper role for Bennett B and Mary Jane?
Time and results will pass judgement on me,
After I Go.
But, most of all, my greatest desire: to be remembered
Faithful to Mrs. Eddy’s discovery,
After I Go.
Still working on “vanity and vexation of spirit”
To but touch the “hem of Truth’s garment” –
Before I Go.
What beckons in the next experience?
Meeting those I love: mom, dad, Mary Weaver;
Hopefully, our dear Leader,
And of course later – my beloved Ginger,
Assuming I fulfilled, at least in part, my job here and now.
So, with my hand to the plow
To work, watch and pray
Before I Go.
Bennett B Quillen
4/2/2016